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Wednesday, August 22, 2007

DEPRESSION

Depression struck me right after my biochemistry paper.

i knew that i was going to fail this module,no matter how hard i studied.

( studying from 11pm to 3.30am before the 9am paper)

i did my best and i really want to achieved at least an A.

However, this is not the case. After the paper, i felt that i m only a C grader.

I realised that if you don't have the talent at science, you will NEVER have the talent at science.

it does not matter how hard u strive or tired. Things will turn out the way they are.

That's what i call FATE.

i guess my FATE don't lies in biotechnology. I felt like a idiot.

I always tell myself that HARDWORK does pay off but i dun see it coming at all.

I m always getting average or sometimes below average grades even if i done my best.

I guess biotechnology is so not for me after all. i might consider changing field of studies.

i feel very lousy and miserable after each exams.

ABC was the worst. i think i might even need to retake this module next sem. :(

i really screwed up EVERYTHING.

i can forget about good GPA and UNI in singaopre.

ABC really wipes off all my SMILE and confidence.

i don't seems to b myself anymore. i m damn depressed after this paper.

( even though i kept blogging tt i will fail this i will fail tt)

but this time is soooooo sooooo REAL.

( if i never fail that means i got a C * FUCK IT* )

it is as gd as fail-ing

i can't seems to smile anymore. i dun c a point of laughting at all.

i wanna cry! :( i m really drepressed. i know i got 40 plus marks deducted.

( the paper is over 100)

i will never allow myslef to such a grade.

i guess u peeps will never understand.

i just sux at SCIENCE.

laught all u wan over my lousy grade tt i predict tt i would get.

i dun care. so what if u get better grade than me 100 times.

i m feeling damn damn down.

I HATE EXAMS!!

EXAMS MAKES ME LOOKS STUPID DUMB N A LOSER!

-END-

* if i were to get less then 3.5 for GPA this sem. i might wanna change field of studies.

we shall c how it goes.

* prey hard that tml INAC would make me better and not worse.

even though i think is kind of impossible.

♥ 12:32 PM