i will be blogging about a few events in this entry. (:
been rather busy with school and dance . hence the lack of update regularly
( more of u should know la. haha)

FIRST JULY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!!
durian cake -_-"
i dunno y he wants such an exotic cake for his birthday.
i m not a fan of durians. haha
i eat la but dun really fancy.

13th years old le. but still as childish.
mayb it runs in the gene. haha
i m like 19 but act as if i m 15 -_-"

tue n wed was dance (: haha
* tue was orange's class. i love her chero (: veri nice!!
wed- ann killed me. her chero was damn challenging. i tried but still sux like some fucktrad -_-"
must jia u big time le. MIND OVER BODY!! ARHHHH!!! MUST MUST MUST!! THINK OVER THE LINE!!! *i m dope. i m dope* trying to psycho myself -_-"

DAPHNE'S FAREWELL
rushed down fm NUS to the airport just to send daphne off.
most of the nra peeps were there.
some peeps did desperate n chicken dance for daphne at the airport .
it was really nice n touching. (:

(: one last NRA family peeps wf daphne till DEC??

we were like daphne fanclub can. -_-"
everyone was crowding around her. haha
saying goodbye,take care, n blah blah blah.

n she was really touched (i guess)
ok, i m sure she was cuz she cried -_-"

"GOODBYE DAPHNE" exclaimed everyone.
till DEC! (:

friday was jazz class (:
it was tough too. must jia u also.

woke up wf pains n ache on my tights, butts, abs, arms...in general all over my body.
but damn shiok!!! (:

BLIND??
woke up early as i have got freshie item prac 9am.
woke up wf a swell in my right eye. it was damn gross n scary.
the whole eye were all red n like dept in like tt. damn uncomfortable.
i even though i was going to go blind in my right eye la -_-"
damn paranoiac. haha

then i told my mama. she was like screaming n saying tt i should not have wore contacts lens .
cuz it might be eye infection cause my contacts n my handling. BUT MINE IS DAILY ONE WAD. n i wore it less then 6 hrs everyday. i only put it on when i have dance n like 1 hour before dance starts.

anyway, the point is she thinks tt i m going blind -_-" she even call the eye center up.
but it opens at 9am n closes at 12pm. then i say i want go DANCE ( haha tt me la)
can go c tml anot. since afternoon dun have . she feel like slapping me la.
going blind le still think about dance . in the end i went to a neighborhood clinic.

when i was waiting, i was thinking about alot of stuff. stuffs tt u wun think abt until u feel it.
"will i continue to dance if i m really blind in my right eye?" yes i will. (:
"will it affects the other eyes ? "
" will i lose my sight?"
"if totally blind how to dance?"

i think i m really dance siao le la.. going to blind still think can dance anot -_-"
normal ppl will think abt their future n life. i think abt dance :X

i felt very afraid. i kept telling myself not to sleep or close my eyes while waiting.
one, i m scared. wad if i close my close to sleep then wake up blind. cannot c any light.
two, i was telling myself tt if really want blind i must let tt eye c as much as it could b4 landing itself into total darkness. while walking also i kept looking at my neighborhood, the ppl, the surrounding,the traffic. like machim one last time like tt. scan everywhere properly.
i wanna like c it for the last time. -_-"

getting emotional le. i shall stop.

the results was a MILD germs infection cuz by me rubbing it. thus the swelling n redness.
so loser la. made me feel like i m going blind. all u need is an eye drop wf antibiotic.
feeling much better now.

but still abit uncomfortable. not as bad as in the morning la.

after visiting the doctor, i went for dance. haha.
dancing wf spec sux!! it just kept falling n i cannot concentrate properly.
so like very hard to do well. i wan perfect eyesight :(

lesson learn: dun rub eyes. n take good care of them cuz going blind is damn scary.
the thoughts is enough to freak me out.

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